| A LoTtA sHiTs On My MiNd... |
[22 Jan 2005|01:50am] |
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i was gonna make this shit private but o'well i don't really care who reads dis cuzh if you don't know me it don't matter but if you do then you prolly already know most of dis...
well as a lot of you know my grandfather is in the hospital. he had his surgery on the 18th and it went well. he's been doing great until last night right after we left the hospital then his pain meds started makin him hallucinate and stuff so now he's back in icu and i'm really worried about him. i love him so so much well i will write more later b/c i'm really hungry
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[05 Jan 2005|10:36pm] |
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yo-first lunch is so thick...theyres madd people at my lunch table :-) my classes are decent but i dont see some of my friends as much as i'd like and i don't ever get to see mark anymore since he doesn't go to school a couple weeks ago me and him got into this hugunious fight but we haven't argued since which is really good i think we just got a lotta things out in the open about how we feel like i told him about how he's msaking me feel like i have to be a certain way or look a certain way to be good enuff for him which he never made me feel that way before and its true but he didnt realize that he was doing that and making me feel like that and i realized that he feels "enprisoned" because i dont want him to go out with his friends but he realizes why i don't want him to now because i think his friends are foney and aren't true friends and i want him to have better friends and i don't think that it's right that he does for them and they dont even offer to help him unless he gives them money or does something for them- i think thats fucked up you're friends should always be there for you and help you out when you need them to without question or pay backs and everything is just really good between us and i don't ever want things to be bad again nd its wierd it's like we go thru so much but feelings never change and i guess i just never felt that before... and a certain friend of mine is really getting on my nerves b/c they complain and complain but are never willing to change and they think i'm trying to make them be more like me but i'm not i just wanna see them happy and they ask for my advice and what i think they should do or why so nd so doesn't like them and all this drama that i think is un-necessary. if you don't like the way something is then change it. you shouldn't be scared of change. i'm trying this new diet/workout thing that targets just my stomach so i'm really happy about that and i'm just trying to be a happier person in general and i'm not gonna let people bring me down because i don't wanna look back at my life and realize that i didn't have fun that i was restricted because of a certain bad friend or bad relationship or by people who make me feel bad about myself. i'm also gonna come to school everyday.. and do ALL of my homework because i really need to pull my gpa up if i wanna get into uf's honors program...because i dont want to have to worry about all these lil things when i'ma senior it's bad enuff we won't get to excempt exams anymore and i gotta take my pe's still which suck but o'well at least i'm done with my sciences :-) i guess i'm just trying to get my life back where it was at the end of last year where i was just having fun with my friends and having this awesome relationship with mark and my school work was all in order and shit... i gotta clean my room tomorrow it's a diaster area...i fuckin forgot my keys today too which sucked even more. oh! i'm getting a laptop! which i'm happy about. i slept ALL afternoon today so i didn't get much done but i didn't really have any homework except to get school supplies and i forgot so i just had to run up to kash-n-karry and get some nd school supplies are mad expensive there like it was $6 for a fuckin spiral when its 10 for $1 at target but o'well it wasn't my money lol this cd needs to hurry up my grandfather is getting tired and wants to go to bed but it still needs 25 more minutes which sucks. i should've woken up and done it earlier but mark is coming to school tomorrow to get it and i haven't seen him in a while and i miss him like crazii.. my grandfather is having surgery on the 11th and its an 8 hour surgery on his back and i'm really really really worried about him and i hope to god that nothing happens!! well i gotta go because this is long enuff
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[02 Jan 2005|11:08am] |
You're an Autum. You're much more laid back then
most and you're very comfortable in new
situations. You rather let things go with the
flow than try to change them. You have a lot of
close friends who love you because you can help
them with their problems. You're a very patient
person and it take a lot to get you rattled.
You're deffinately a lover not a hater. (If you
can't see tje pics, go to my homepage and look
near the bottom and find your result)
What season are you? (pics)
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[02 Jan 2005|11:04am] |
INTELLECTUAL ONE. For you the beauty is not enough.
He/she must be smart and friendly. You are one
who think in facts. You take your feelings in
background everything is material. For you a
good partner is seen on the good results he/she
makes, his job etc. This shows you that she/he
is a respectable person who has god qualities,
and then you start to fall in love with
her/him. You dont like people that are lying or
playing. Your loved one will never cheat on you
because he/she respects you and you choose your
partner carefully.PLEASE VOTE, I want to know
what you think about my quiz, I worked hard on
it.
You can always message me or tell me how I can
improve that quiz. Ill sure write back.
~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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[02 Jan 2005|10:56am] |
Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful,
kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your
almost angelic, you find joy in others
happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in
pain. You want to make everyone around you feel
good about themselves and if someone is upset
you can tend to become rather upset as well
which means you are sympathetic and raise
others above yourself. Being as kind and
good-natured as you are people have most likely
hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up
every time. You may look fragile but you are
stronger than most tend to see. Life is
beautiful no matter how you look at it and you
understand that people make mistakes, not
everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in
the bad which is a talent few posses, dont ever
let anyone change you. You truly have a
beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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[25 Dec 2004|09:20pm] |
 thats my babii- i love him so so much... happy christmas!!!
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| i did a survey! |
[22 Dec 2004|10:10pm] |
SECTION 1 ABOUT YOURSELF
+ Known as: Tif-Fon-EE, Madd Dawg, Tiffi
+ Age: 16
+ Lives in(on): T*Town 813
+ School: KHS class of 06!
+ Shoe size: 7 1/2
+ Hair: brown
+ Eye color: hazel.. i love my eyes!
+ Style: short, tyte, sexy, nd comfy
+ Fears: not accomplishing goals in life, CLOWNS, ompa lompas.!
SECTION 2 HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Fallen off the bed? haha many a times!
+ Fallen for a relative? just plain gross right there
+ Broke someone's heart? maybe one or two
+ Had your heart broken? idk i thought it was at the time but now i know that it wasn't
+ Done something you regret? definitely.
+ Cheated on a test? hells yeah-dat spanish exam-ms. graham-allen was so naive!
SECTION 3 CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing? pjs
+ Listening to? lovers and friends: ursher, lil jon, luda-cris
+ Located? chair
+ Chatting with? my boo, mark
+ Should REALLY be doing? fuckin lol
SECTION 4 DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? of course
+ Like anybody? lovin my hubby
+ Have any piercings? 4 in left ear, 3 in right ear, 1 in bellybutton
+ Drive? YAY
+ Drink? just a lil
+ Smoke? allergic
+ Got a cellphone? Yesh
+ Got a pager? hells naw
SECTION 5 FRIENDS...
+ Who is your best? krystal, clara, kristie, billy, chiko, peta, dara, jessica franco, angela, ****MaRk (duh!)****
+ Who do you hate? tanesha
+ Who is the most talkative? ME, krystal, clara, dara, kristie
+ Who is the cutest? all of us (ME, krystal, clara, dara, kristie,etc.) we're the sexiest peoples in the whole wide world! bitch
+ Who laughs the most? clara-she laughs at everrything
+ Who have you known the longest? billy den jess den peta nd chiko nd den MARK den krystal, kristie, dara, angela, and den clara
+ Who have you known the shortest? clara
+ Who do you miss the most? MELODy
+ Who do you turn to for personal problems? mark or one of the girls
+ Do you hang out with the opposite sex? of course of course-i do date nd shit
+ Do you trust your friends? with all my heart...
+ Are you a good friend? of course- i got der bacc
+ Can you keep a secret? yesh
Last Person You:
+ Hugged? Mark
+ Kissed?mark + IMed? mark
+ Talked to on the phone? mark
+ Yelled at? mark
+ Fell in love with? mark
SECTION 7 PERSONAL...
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? computer engineer yea i'm a nerd lol.
+ What has been the best day of your life? 12-16-03 all yahs important pplz shuld kno or culd get a clue lol
+ What comes first in your life? love, happiness, friends, family
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? hubby
+ What are you most scared of? CLOWNS and FEET
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? mark
+ Did you lose someone you really loved? my great aunt bonita- may she rest in peace
+ How many times have you fallen deeply in love? once and i still am in love
+ Love your family? of course
+ Love your friends? hells yah
SECTION 8 FAVORITE...
+ Movie: ???
+ Song: changes daily lol!
+ Group: errr-- i love tupac nd fabolous
+ Store: louis vuitton at international
+ Relative: My 4-year old cuz kelly
+ Sport:DANCE- baseball/basketball
+ Ice Cream Flavor: the green mint chocolate chip
+ Fruit: CHERRIES
+ Food: CHINESE/ ITalian
+ Candy: KiSsEs + Holiday: valentines day, birthday, anniversary, christmas, birthday(cuz it's all about me!)
+ Day of the Week: Friday
+Time: 9
+ Color: PINK
+ Name for a Girl: TIffany
+ Name for a Boy: ian
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SECTION 9 DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs? sure
+ Like to give kisses? hells yeah
+ Like to walk in the rain? no i always get sick..
+ Prefer black or blue pens? blue
+ Like to travel? yah.. sure
+ Sleep on your side? yesh my right one
+ Think you're attractive? yes
+ Ever have the falling dream? actually no
+ Have stuffed animals? tons!!
SECTION 10 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: definitely NOT
+ Bill Clinton: ??
+ Eating Disorders: dangerous
+ Suicide: "i dont understand why its illegal??? lol how are you going to convict them...."-jess.... but tru
+ Summer: EQUALS Party!
+ Tattoos: getting one the day i turn 18
+ Piercings: getting my nose pierced the day i turn 18 too
+ Make-up: does NOT cure the UGLY
SECTION 11 THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? nose the tongue fucks up ur teef
+ Single or taken? taken
+ MTV or BET? bet ( no rock songs!)
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? niether- both are LAME
+ Sugar or salt? sugar
+ Silver or gold? gold
+ Chocolate or flowers? can i have a teddy bear or jewelry?
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? idk depends on the pix
+ M&M's or Skittlles?: red or purple skittles
+ Stay up late or sleep in? stay up late and sleep in
+ Hot or cold? both- hot you can wear skirts, cold you can cuddle
+ Sun or moon? moon... more romantic, better lighting for old
+ Left or Right? i am ambidextrous
+ 10 acuantainces or 1 best friend?10 best friends
+ Mustard or ketchup? ketchup all the way
+ Spring or Fall? fall.. leaves change colors its pretty
+ Happy or sad? happy..
+ Wonder or amazement? the one doing the amazement....
+ McDonald's or Burger King? MCDONALDS CREW!!!
+ Mexican or Italian food? italian
+ Lights on or off? depends- what am i doing?
+ Candy or soda? Candy- ezier to eat in bed
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[08 Dec 2004|04:47pm] |
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i know i haven't written in here in a long ass time but i've been so damn busy nd it sux cuz i hardly have time ta do nething. I'm so happy right now-even though i feel like shit. me nd mark are doin so great! onlii problem is- is that we don't get to spend enough time together nd it sux because i love him so much nd it just sux. but christmas is coming up soon which makes me happy. i didn't go to skool today becuz i can barely talk but i gotta go ta dance tanite cuzh our concert is on sunday nd i'm kinda nervous cuzh mark nd some ppl from skool r comin nd no one has really seen me perform on stage so i'ma lil nervous! but at the same time i'm excited!! :-D nd i'm so in love nd so happy nd i love all my friends cuzh they're here 4 me wen evrythin gets ruff nd i juss wana take a sec ta thank them fa bein here fa me. nd i especially mark cuzh he makes mii days worth livin nd mii friends who r the only reason (now) that i go ta skool~ lol i'm makin a copii of dis cd fa mark cuzh dats mii babii nd i love him so much. i'm fuk'n workin lyk krzii lately nd i hate it but then again its money. i'm still pissed about mii mom not lettin me get mii license nd i feel lyk a loser cuzh of it but wat can i do? i need her fuck'n signature on da shit. oh well. fuck her. i gotta start gettin ready fa dance so i hope dis cd finishes soon. i'm fallin so behind in skool rite now. i really wanna get all a's nd b's but i'm failin ap chem nd its almost time fa exams so hopefully i can at least get it up ta a D which i'll still get in trouble fa but i don't give 2 fux bout dat rite now. damn 12 mo' minutes on dat shit. lol i'm so impatient. my minutes start ova tomorrow! yaye! lol i'm such a dork but o wells. i got all my christmas shopping done except marks. it's not much but hey at least it's something. i want one of those livestrong bracelet things...grrr...nd i hope mii parents start lettin me go out mo' cuzh i'm growing up nd i'm too young ta onlii work nd go ta skool nd have no life. nd i hope dey stop trippin bout mark cuzh dat shyts pissin me off we've been goin out fa almost 2 fuckin years nd dey still don't let us go no wheres together. grrr.. dey can lick mii balls...lol...well i g2g (pizza's here lol)
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| I'm So0o0o0o0o0o0o happy... |
[21 Oct 2004|09:23pm] |
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i love mark so much- he just did the cutest thing (lol not really but it was still cute) well we were talkin nd he goes (in a sweet voice) "baby do me a favor- call me back in 20 min. i'm so sorry i really want to talk to you but my battery's dieing nd i want to charge it for a lil bit- i'm so sorry i really do wanna keep talkin ta you- thankz i love you" it was s0o0o0o0o0o cute. I love that boy so much. he makes me so happy. i find myself cheesin every time i think of him- its krzii. i could be so madd or so depressed nd havin the worst day nd he just turns it all around nd makes everything better wit just a smile. he means everything to me. i know i could spend the whole rest of my life wit him. he's already proposed nd everything. it drives me krzi tho cuzh now me nd him don't go ta skool togetha no more nd i hardly see him but we talk all the time. nd i love him. for a while there he was actin like a big jerk but i think the separation made him remember how much he does care for me nd how he took seeing me nd talkin ta me all the time for granted nd now he just really makes me feel like i'm so special nd he makes me feel so good. but i g2g...
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[01 Oct 2004|07:56pm] |
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im at kristies i'll t2yl
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[01 Sep 2004|08:52pm] |
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hey i'm so happy- mark is making me so-- happy. i feel so good- i'm learnin ta love myself again. :) i feel so loved, so sexy, so--- **sighs happily** wonderful..can't talk too happy
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[22 Aug 2004|06:51pm] |
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i'm so pissed right now- i'm so sick of this cheerleading shit i'm bout ta say just fuck it- it aint worth my time or my money-everything was iight (i guess) til tonights practice nd it was pretty shaddy cuzh i felt like they dont want me on the team but instead of juss throwing me off they're guna make it so that i get so pissed off ima quit nd i'm thinkin thats what ima do- cuzh i just do not have tha time ta deal wiff shady people but i'ma go b/c i cant just sit here all pissed off
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| I did a QuIz-lol |
[14 Aug 2004|06:10am] |
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
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| Last Day of the School Summer |
[04 Aug 2004|01:40pm] |
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Its the last day of the "school's summer" nd i'm working at the gym ta get my community service hours for bright futures. im madd bored. mark's at work nd i have practice today so i've gonna be madd busy. i'ma look so cute for school. :-D (-lol-) nd i wanna see all my friends. I love Mark so-- much nd our realationship is right where i want it ta be at least right now under the circumstances. I got my nails done yesterday after mark went home nd i went over ta krystles house nd did my toes. next time, i'ma get a pedicure instead of doing it myself(i think) i'm ready ta go home already cuzh i'm sick of being here but i know it's important to get these community service hours.
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[30 Jul 2004|10:12pm] |
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WeLL...it's been a madd long time since i updated nd idk- shits happend but its not nothing...me nd marks been fight'n lyk crzii lately but its iight cuzh we worked shit out nd its all been my fuck'n fault b/c i've been a bitch ta him lately nd i feel so damn bad but i think we figured out why- cuzh of my schedule nd not being able ta take my pills regularly (birth control) my hormones have been fucked up nd i feel rly rly rly bad...nd i knoe i shouldnt take shit out on him nd its madd fuxd up dat i did but that aint eva fina happen again i swear...i luv dat boy more den n*e*otha fux'n thng. i've been workin so much but dats iight wiff me cuzh i need dat money :-D oh fuck-i need my charger-o0o well nd my moms been letting me see mark lately so i've been having my fun...hopefully he's fina stop by ta see me nd bring sum shit from his moms house- hes gotten his life togetha nd i'm so damn proud of him...but i'ma go
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